2008 was one unexpected ride.
up times always came with the down times,
joyrides always compounded by sickbeds and
arcs never being complete circles.
And in some ways, knowing, all that is part of finally growing up.
It’s hard to admit that you are no longer that child in elementary
who waits for decisions to be made for him,
shuts up unless spoken to and
contented with his own swing in the playground.
It’s hard to admit that you are no longer that kid back in high school
who can quietly sit back,
enjoy the company of friends and
just let things be.
It’s hard to admit that you are no longer that guy in college
who can be as weird as he wants to be,
speak whatever on whatever and
wouldn’t care any less.
It’s hard to admit that you are no longer that new hire at work
who can be exaggeratingly eager to work,
make-believe that everything can and will be ok,
make life out of work and
think that you can be happy living that way every day.
Yet, past is past and they don’t come back to haunt.
as waves don’t turn back,
melodies never heard the same way twice and
old feelings hardly ever return.
So as the new year starts, it’s the time to reflect of things left behind,
learn,
and continue to move forward.
I guess, that’s how life is.
a continued search.
that there is no timetable for which you are graded on,
that life is no project with a glide path to follow.
To find that there is no definite answer,
to accept changes as they come,
to live for the experience of living and
to simply be.
This is what I pray 2009 will be,
to take life as it comes,
to live on spurs of the moment,
to plan but never set it all on stone.
To live off the experience of life, come what may.
Unstructured, raw, and partially edited 