Through a prayer

18 05 2013

On the 26th of April, we attended a weekday mass. At the end of the ceremony, I asked her to kneel and pray with me.



Thank you for bringing Jewella back home to me. Thank you for keeping her safe during her stay in Iligan, in keeping her healthy until she has come back to my arms. I am grateful for all that you have given to both of us. Thank you for our families and friends who have continued to love and support us. Please continue to keep them safe and strong. Continue to bless them as you have blessed me and Jewella.

In front of you Lord, I make this solemn promise to continue to love and cherish Jewella. I promise to take care of her the best I can. I know that to promise the world to her is impossible but she means the world to me and through you I offer myself to her, now, and especially as we take this next step in our life together…

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2012: A year in focus, of change

31 12 2012

2012 turned out to be not what I expected when it began. Nevertheless, it allowed me to refocus and change. It was a difficult start of the year when I hurt my back and diagnosed with problem that had to make me stop doing a lot of things. I gave up a lot of things and it was difficult to get over the fact.


But when life gives you lemons, cut it in half and sprinkle over your salmon. Piece by piece, I guess, you can get back up your feet. Now, with new eyes and a different perspective, I’d probably be able to look back on 2012 and think of it as when hell of a meal.

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There’s a hole in my sidewalk

6 04 2010

Autobiography in Five Short Chapters By Portia Nelson

* Chapter One I walk down the street. There is a deep hole in the sidewalk. I fall in. I am lost .. I am helpless. It isn’t my fault. It takes forever to find a way out.

* Chapter Two I walk down the street. There is a deep hole in the sidewalk. I pretend that I don’t see it. I fall in again. I can’t believe I am in this same place. But, it isn’t my fault. It still takes a long time to get out.

* Chapter Three I walk down the same street. There is a deep hole in the sidewalk. I see it is there. I still fall in… It’s a habit… But, my eyes are open. I know where I am. It is my fault. I get out immediately.

* Chapter Four I walk down the same street. There is a deep hole in the sidewalk. I walk around it.

* Chapter Five I walk down another street.

Unstructured, raw, and partially edited – Live well on 2009!

4 01 2009

2008 was one unexpected ride.
   up times always came with the down times,
   joyrides always compounded by sickbeds and
   arcs never being complete circles.
And in some ways, knowing, all that is part of finally growing up.

It’s hard to admit that you are no longer that child in elementary
   who waits for decisions to be made for him,
   shuts up unless spoken to and
   contented with his own swing in the playground.
It’s hard to admit that you are no longer that kid back in high school
   who can quietly sit back,
   enjoy the company of friends and
   just let things be.
It’s hard to admit that you are no longer that guy in college
   who can be as weird as he wants to be,
   speak whatever on whatever and
   wouldn’t care any less.
It’s hard to admit that you are no longer that new hire at work
   who can be exaggeratingly eager to work,
   make-believe that everything can and will be ok,
   make life out of work and
   think that you can be happy living that way every day.

Yet, past is past and they don’t come back to haunt.
   as waves don’t turn back,
   melodies never heard the same way twice and
   old feelings hardly ever return.
So as the new year starts, it’s the time to reflect of things left behind,
   and continue to move forward.

I guess, that’s how life is.
   a continued search.
   that there is no timetable for which you are graded on,
   that life is no project with a glide path to follow.
To find that there is no definite answer,
   to accept changes as they come,
   to live for the experience of living and
   to simply be.

This is what I pray 2009 will be,
   to take life as it comes,
   to live on spurs of the moment,
   to plan but never set it all on stone.
To live off the experience of life, come what may.

Guidelines on How to Not Meet Expectations

7 06 2008

Dream that you can do everything thrown to you…
… And realize that you are taking in more than you can chew.

Try to satisfy all expectations…
… And realize that you can’t please everyone.

Find yourself offered an opportunity to develop and grow…
… And realize that you are set up to fail.

Bask in the thought that your thought process is unique from others…
… And realize that uniqueness alienates as well.

See in the eyes where others see you as a people person…
… And realize that your happiness is in solitude.

Contribute to the success of others…
… And realize that you are not exactly helping out…

… And realize that it’s not how it’s suppose to be.

To reflect on ones own thoughts and feelings

18 05 2007

Leader. What does it take to be one? By definition, a leader should have the capacity to lead but in essence, a leader should inspire people to perform a task without having them to compromise their capacity for growth and enabling them to be able to lead as well.

It’s a hot topic on what makes someone a leader that it often boils down to defining specific qualities. Ideas cross your mind about what a leader should be but when you are put into a position where you have the opportunity to be one, are you really willing to take that chance? Can you honestly say you have the makings of a good leader? Is it possible to be ready to be one?

Can you put aside our personal goals in order to exceed team goals? Can you lay down your personal ego when you made a mistake? Can you have the guts to apologize after making your mistake? Can you take all of the blame for the sake of the people you lead? Can you raise your concerns firmly, quickly and demand immediate action to items that are most important for the team? Can you not be selfish and be mature enough and grow up faster so that the people you lead also grow? Can you overcome personal emotion, personal criticisms and take it constructively? Can you make people grow and mature?

So many expectations, in the end, are you really ready to take it on? But I guess the bottom line really, more than anything else, is if you feel inspired and proud when the people you used to lead become better leaders than you? It’s more than because of you but because their potential grew with you.

Introspecting before judgment of others…